Monday, June 3, 2013

Over 5500 Views!... Thank You!

My friend Courtney sent me a quote the other day:

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”  ~ Anias Nin

It moved me…It got me thinking about the many conversations and emails I’ve had over the past few months—the numerous calls saying, “I followed up on my mammogram appointment because I talked to you.” Or “I can’t believe you are sharing this. I went through the same thing, but I didn’t share it with people I don’t know.” And “I’m so proud of you. You are inspiring.”

I recently realized that I have stood in my own way when it comes to accomplishing the goals I set out to accomplish.  (How many people can relate to that?)  A lot of times when we do something that is effortless to us we don't think of it as a talent.  It usually takes a lot of feedback from others to build up our self-confidence enough to believe we can make big things happen.  I believe that, in any situation, your attitude about it is everything. Throughout this entire journey, it was extremely important for me to keep constructive, encouraging people and positive energy around me. Just the thought of helping someone else through my words is touching. Life is about taking risks and stepping out on faith. I believe that now more than ever ... 

At one point, someone asked me, “Weren’t you afraid of what people might think?”
It wasn't just the question.  It was paired with a look of "I can't believe you are doing this."

Well, if I went through life making decisions based on what others think, I would be crazy. When faced with the difficult decision such as the one I had to make, there would have been so much more at risk if I had chosen to do nothing. Then after going through all of this, I found myself in a place where I felt like this experience has to have a purpose.  (It was a powerful feeling that wouldn't go away.)  I couldn’t just go through all of this and then simply move forward like nothing had happened. It’s still a vulnerable and personal decision to share my story, but sharing for me right now has a purpose. It helps me heal and strengthens my spirit. I am reminded everyday by the positive feedback and comments (most of which I receive privately) about this blog and my journey.  It's a great feeling to have had over 5500 views already!   To everyone who has taken the time to not only read this blog but also to respond with words of support, I would like to say thank you. Your messages motivate me and encourage me to continue. I know that I am forever changed by this experience…

I would love to know about an experience that happened in your life that forever changed you! Please see this blog as a platform of sharing, inspiration and healing.

(to be continued…)


  1. Many live their lives denying their spirits to be set free. Society has shackled us, afraid to reach out, afraid to offend; all the while our spirits are screaming from within, 'let me be free'. It is time to be released.

    As life would have it, I got caught up with the wonders of motherhood; not a bad thing, children allow you to see things you had forgotten and your heart is always open. Yet, that connection between my heart and my spirit was lacking; I knew it existed but did not fully open the door.

    When my daughter was diagnosed with breast cancer her journey had turns that took away confidence in what she thought to trust; discovering there were no real knowledge of treating cancer, it was all trial and error, hit or miss. She was on the error or missing end. All the while she took in life and ate it like a hungry bear on a spring morning; she saw life and everything on earth like a blind man seeing for the first time.

    Suddenly I realized through this journey my door had opened wide. There in and around me there it was; light in abundance and words that you once thought about saying came fluently; the universe and earth became one. I knew she too lived this way and was unafraid. Our energies flowed together and my support of her decisions from that point onward was constant. She turned to natural healing and discovered healing. Her cancer gave up. We realized, why would be left here on this earth without healing, without cures; why would a disease be allowed by God without a cure? He is not a cruel God but a loving God. We would not leave our child in a forest without supplies and ourselves to guide them out; nor would God do this to us. We would not poison our children but give them good food, why would God want us to poison ourselves trying to heal ourselves, it made no sense. We followed what we knew God was saying to us. He brought her to healing.

    We were shown answers, she walked the path of despair and when she turned to God, the light, she found healing and the answer. I shared in her glory. She decided to turn her life to giving others the same love and support, the same guide to seeing the light and started Jesicha's Hope. She asked that I help her and give attention to her dream; and I promised I would.

    Promises by mothers are always kept. Miracles and journeys don't always have the destination you expect, we are not God and do not see that big picture. The poisons she took before the natural alternative treatments showed their damage and she succumbed to poisonings. I took over her dream and kept it alive. She works with me from heaven and shows herself to others in pain with cancer. Many have seen her, others heard her voice; she is my guide, letting me do God's work. I speak to those in pain, with cancer with love and understanding; my heart can feel their pain, their desperation. My words come not from me but from the universe; they are guiding loving words.

    It is a glorious day when I can see a smile from someone that a minute before could not smile. I see the heavens shine upon others and I know all is well. Jesicha has given us her legacy to learn how to love life, heal and find joy in all things; she has seen therefore she knows the truth of the universe. You need only open your eyes, ears and heart to know it too. Meet her at you too will feel her love, it is always there and if you need me I am always there with an ear, a shoulder and a giving heart. Peace and joy.

  2. Wow!!!! Thank you so much for taking the time to share such a moving journey. I hope that everyone who reads this takes the time to visit I truly appreciate you for sharing your story.